Battlefield notes #1: repentance
Every man has a battlefield. Some of us are fighting battles in secret. Some of us are losing them in public. But all of us have a decision to make: will we keep stumbling in our own strength, or will we drop our weapons of pride and surrender at the foot of the cross?
For me, the battle was pride and selfishness in my marriage. I thought leadership meant doing things my way. I thought providing financially was enough. I thought saying I believed in God meant I was safe from falling apart. I was wrong. So wrong.
The cost was high. My wife told me she wanted out. My home felt like it was collapsing. And for a season, I carried the crushing weight of shame.
But here’s the truth about repentance: it’s not God rubbing our face in failure. Repentance is God opening a door we thought was locked. It’s not humiliation — it’s liberation.
When I fell to my knees and confessed to God that I had failed as a husband, a father, and a man of God, He didn’t meet me with condemnation. He met me with grace. He didn’t say, “I’m done with you.” He said, “I’m not finished with you.”
That’s the battlefield. Repentance is the moment when you stop fighting God and let Him fight for you. It’s the moment when regret turns into recommissioning.
Here’s what I’ve learned:
Repentance is the reset button. The enemy tells you that your failure is final. God tells you that failure is fertilizer — He’ll grow something new out of it if you let Him.
Repentance restores vision. For months I couldn’t see straight — all I saw was what I had lost. When I confessed and surrendered, God began to lift my eyes again, not just to what I’d done, but to who I could become.
Repentance isn’t just personal — it’s generational. My daughter doesn’t just need a dad who provides. She needs a dad who knows how to fall before Jesus and get back up again. Repentance gives your family a different inheritance: not perfection, but authenticity.
Brothers, you don’t win battles by hiding. You win them by kneeling. The world says “man up.” The Kingdom says “bow down.”
If you’re carrying regret right now — over your marriage, your kids, your porn use, your finances, your anger, whatever it is — don’t keep fighting with a broken sword. Repent. Confess. Lay it down.
Repentance doesn’t erase your past, but it hands it to the only One who can redeem it.
I am living proof. God took a man on the verge of losing everything and recommissioned him to fight again — this time, with His armor on.
And He’ll do it for you too.
